It’s the simple things in life we forget.

EDEN BAR. Reminded me of an important aspect of life that I have long forgotten - something that was done by choice. A cost that was paid for the price of progress. It was present then in that room. Evident in the vibe painted by a force which tied their souls together and channelled through the harmonious roars. It was there that I was made aware again of the void that I have carved within myself. I knew then that I’ve reached a milestone. I have finally experienced peace. THIS IS ACCEPTANCE.

Move forward with hesitation

Journal Entry Date: 4 February 2009

The fading memory - of what was is a house party in a simple yet carefully detailed house big enough to contain generations of friends.

Inside two of my friends make a comment about a specific girl. Both agree that she’s good looking but they’ve only recently met her. I ask myself why her? Why now? They notice my face. She’s nowhere to be seen at the party.

I wander around. An old friend passes me a drink, she looked sickly, her condition does not stop her from being there. I want to talk but her lips dont move. She knows I want to ask her where she’s been but the answers are there. I take the drink and walk away.

We walk out together as a group of four, a girl in a black dress is with us. She’s not very tall. I step into a red car and lay down in the back seat they remain outside talking. I notice she’s dancing. She looks at me and she’s shocked. She was staring at my chest.

The house…. I was in the house that I couldn’t step into? It was a party?

I wake up. On my mind are events and thoughts that prevented me from sleeping the night before. I draw the - Eight of Wands in reverse.